Friday, 7 June 2013

Falling

My dreams fore sore
The night before
That I was alone

My castle is not my own
The trees and fields
Are not my home

Devils in dresses
And daemons at Masses

If the world’s a stage
And us upon it players
Then the world is ending
And we fall with it

The bodies will tumble
Into ditches and divots

Horsemen clutching at your heels
But you will never see it

In the Hollywood Reels
That sell sex, starvation,
And rock n roll,
Gucci, Prada, Maripol

Prince Charming will not
Slay the dragons
Or climb the tower
To rescue you

He’s too busy at home
Playing Call of Duty 2
Fake heroes
For an imaginary war
Asleep
When North Korea
Comes knocking at your door

We, the deluded ones
Fake hair, fake bodies, fake guns
Crying out for someone to save us
When the time comes

The have forsaken us
The brave ones

So pray to your God of science
Of hate, of injustice
As the missiles come to burn us

Sincerity is out of fashion.
The world is falling
And we fall with it.


07/06/2013
SJ Menary

I am not a number

 I am not a number
37-23-36?
48-40-49
My worth
Is not measured by
My dress size
Those delicate girls
Tiny little bodies
Skinny little legs
Flawless hair
Flawless stilettos
Pouting pretty lipstick
I don’t wear lipstick
I wear Doc Martens
I don’t think about One Direction
Boys and dates
I think about the Russian Revolution
And Ice cream.

07/06/2013
SJ Menary

Writer's Block

He lived on a diet of coca cola
And skittles

He called himself a vampire
The writer

Bags under his eyes, grey against
The blood-shot pink
He did not sleep

Stories whirring in his head
Colliding with exploding dervishes

But worse
The writer’s block

Pens chewed to the wick
Hair ripped out, brains wracked

And his victim, the computer
Defenestrated

16/07/2013
SJ Menary

Wednesday, 22 May 2013

The Indie Community

I was always a bit of a sceptic when it came to the ‘indie community’. That is, independent writers and artists who come together for support and networking. Many meet through digital forums these days – twitter, facebook and various blogging sites.

To be honest, I believed that this type of social interaction was really only prevalent for musicians and artists. Writers, being of a rather solitary persuasion, I just assumed were not included.

I cannot believe how wrong I was! In the course of a few short weeks, I have met so many writers through facebook groups, by blogging and through friends of friends. We seem to turn up everywhere!!

Self-published, e-published, not yet published and traditionally published authors have welcomed me into what really does feel like a community. It is very supportive, and allows for writers to support each other and promote both themselves and others through the extensive network. I have found myself building links with writers from all over the globe, including North America, Europe and further afield.

Through digital groups, I have also been able to meet other authors who are editing, and in the same position as I am. By sharing skills, critical feedback and contacts, I have started to really gain confidence as an author.

This confidence has allowed me to set up my own author’s facebook page at www.facebook.co.uk/SJMenary, and I am thrilled to have received 54 likes in two days!

Of course, I have a long way to go before I can stand toe to toe with bestselling authors. But, considering that a few months ago, I did not even refer to myself as a writer, I think I have come quite a long way! And it is all thanks to the support of my friends and the indie community.

If you are an aspiring writer, I urge you to go and check out some local groups or digital forums. You never know where you might end up!

Monday, 13 May 2013

The Blood Gate - Chapter 4 extract

They had come in the night. When no one was watching. Out of that dark place that he had been building. Dug too deep, some said. Meddling in bad magic. Little did he know the implications of his folly, and the consequences it would have on his children.
His children. A source of eternal pride and constant disappointment to him. He was a brilliant man, he knew. But a flawed one, also. He had no wish to despise his daughter. He tried to hide it. But she had always known.
The mother of his twins had been a venomous reptile. Such terrible beauty. Such an evil heart to betray him. That slut.
And all daughters turn out just like their mothers, didn’t they?
The girl knew. He was certain. And she was growing to hate him viciously. It was all his doing. But he couldn’t stop it. He was turning his own daughter into a monster. It was a crime. She had always been the brightest of the twins, the most likely to be a worthy successor to his empire. She was the stronger warrior. A superior leader. She outstripped her brother in every way. But he had no choice in the matter. Martinez would succeed him. Martinez was the child he loved more.
As he paced before his creation in that subterranean chamber below the deep lagoon, he wished for a different legacy. He was too old now. Too old to change anything. And for a sorcerer of his calibre to have survived this long, it was nothing short of a miracle. Some younger magician should have killed him by now. Those ambitious new comers seemed so eager to prove themselves these days.
His construction was almost complete. Not even the inner circle at the palace knew the truth about his work. Mortaris preferred it that way. They did not need to know what he was doing. Watching his workmen chiselling away at the sycamore panels for his great door, he observed with a critical eye the standard of the craftsmanship. It had to be perfect. It had a lot to withstand. The silver bands would be here soon, and then the frankincense resins. It would be beautiful when it was done.        
His door to the Underworld. 
The Gates of Hell, The Kunsthaus Zürich, Zurich - image courtesy of www.wikipedia.org.uk

Tuesday, 16 April 2013

The Blood Gate - chapter three extract

‘Is this it?’ Suraya looked unimpressed. ‘You dragged me all the way through the desert for this?’
            ‘What’s wrong with it?’ asked Roscoe. ‘I rather like it.’
            ‘It’s a shack.’
            ‘It’s not what’s on the outside that matters, my dear,’ he took her by the shoulder and drew her closer.
Suraya looked at the ramshackle lean-to. Nestled in a crevice half way down the sheer rock wall, it clung to a crumbling squat of a building.
            ‘The roof looks like it’s going to fall in on us. I hope you know that. Bringing your only goddaughter to this death trap.’
Roscoe rolled his eyes.
‘Who is this guy, anyway?’ Suraya kicked at the red dust on the desert path. A buzzard screeched overhead, and Rianya flinched beside Roscoe.
            ‘A lunatic. A collector. A wise man. And if I remember correctly, he also knows a thing or two about maps. Now, I know my own work, but I wouldn’t put anything past the good Caliph.’
            ‘A forgery?’ Suraya questioned.
            ‘Possibly. Who knows? Now come along, we cannot keep him waiting.’
Roscoe ushered them through a heavy faded red curtain, which swept across the entrance of the timber-framed construction. A cockroach scuttled out from under the curtain, sniffing for crumbs of food. Myriads of brass and copper teapots and little cups were hanging dubiously over the doorway, huddled around a wooden plaque that read ‘Livingstone’s’.
Suraya, Roscoe and Rianya stood close together in the cramped space as their eyes adjusted to the darkness within. The air was hot and stifling, and Suraya could feel boxes and chests and bookcases all about her, squashing in at all angles. Rianya grasped at her sleeve in fear, but Suraya roughly swatted her away.
Slowly, emerging from the blackness, flecks of gold began to materialise. Gold, silver, rubies. Everywhere she looked. The dim light bounced off green glass bottles lining every bookshelf, crammed with parchments and trinkets. Baskets filled with pottery shards to Suraya’s left, and to her right was a polished globe sitting in a brass cradle. She reached out to touch it, and it span slowly, rudely awakening a cantankerous parrot in a dusty cage by her feet. The bird squawked irritably. At the end of the room, under a cacophony of saucepans attached to the roof with string, sat a hunched man in an oversized armchair. He squinted though round glasses at a compass, the entire room lit by one small stub of a candle beside him.
‘Livingstone?’ asked Roscoe.
            ‘My father’s name,’ the hunched man said mildly.
            ‘Sorry, Alcester.’
The man looked around, his round face dominated by a large red noise and whiskers of feathery hair that crept over his ears.
            ‘Can it be? Captain Wells! How? When? What? Why? Oh, it is nice to see you, my very old, very dear friend! Nice to see you, yes. Come, come! Sit with me, long time it has been! And friends, yes. Sit! Mouse?’ He gestured to a plate of dormice beside him, their tails plaited together. ‘Very tasty.’
            ‘No, thank you,’ Roscoe replied quickly. He picked his way delicately forward and perched on a bookcase edge. ‘It is good to see you again, old friend,’ he clasped Alcester’s hand warmly. ‘It has been many years. How are you?  Is life kind? This is my goddaughter, Suraya, and her cousin, Rianya.’
            ‘Come, sit, kin of Captain Wells. All welcome, most welcome,’ Alcester gestured to a pile of books with a gnarled old finger, and Rianya went forward to sit. Suraya hung back, not wanting to be cramped too closely with the princess.
‘What brings you to my humble abode, after all this time, my southern friend?’ Alcester chuckled to himself.
            ‘I came to you because you are the best, even after all this time, still the best.’ Roscoe gave Alcester a friendly pat on the shoulder and grinned.
            ‘Flattery will get you everywhere,’ Alcester chuckled again.
            ‘Do you remember the map I made the last time I was here?’
            ‘For the king? Yes, yes.’
            ‘Well, I need you to authenticate it for me,’ Roscoe pulled the rolled parchment from his satchel and spread it carefully across the cluttered desk.
            ‘I thought caliph a friend of yours? Perhaps not. No. Not new caliph. Tricky. Treachery afoot, me thinks.’
Alcester looked carefully at Suraya. She tried not to catch his eye, and busily ran her fingers over the graceful curve of a short bow, propped up against a dusty bookshelf. The wood was stained dark, almost black, and the ends were capped in gold. It had been a long time since she had held a bow, but even as she touched it, it seemed familiar to her. All the calloused fingers and bruised arms she had gotten as a child practicing with Roscoe’s weapon seemed to come flooding back, as vivid in her mind as they had ever been in real life.
She looked back to the strange old man with Roscoe, who was now caressing a cockatoo he had pulled out from under the tablecloth.
‘Ahhhh, I look at map for you,’ Alcester said winking, a wide grin spreading over his face, and plonked the cockatoo down onto the table.
Pulling out reams and reams of maps and charts from the bookshelf behind him, he stared thoughtfully through a giant magnifying glass at Roscoe’s map.
‘Yes, lugal amar, yes I see it now. Hmm, pesh didly. Or was it didly pesh? I always forget the grammar. Yes, here. Old, old, old it is.’
            ‘Not so old’, replied Roscoe a touch indignantly. ‘Is it real?’ he said, careful to keep one eye on Suraya as she wandered through the myriad of objects in the shop.
            ‘Hmm, nita kalaga. Yes, yes here it is! Just like this, or that, or maybe this one,’ Alcester said, flinging pieces of parchment up at Roscoe. ‘Not seen one like this for long long time. Most interesting, lugal. Yes yes, I think. Most real, I am sure. And here, see, the seal,’ he whispered most urgently to Roscoe.
‘In tact?’ he asked, one eye on Suraya to make certain she did not hear him.
‘Yes. Most certainly. Stupid caliph did not know what he had. But friend Roscoe, it is far, very long way to go. Dangerous,’ Alcester said in a low voice, glancing around to see if anyone was listening. ‘Not safe!’
            ‘Thank you, Alcester. You are, as always, a most brilliant mind to know,’ Roscoe drew the map back into a scroll, and slipped it into his bag.
            ‘Dangerous!’ Alcester hissed. Roscoe looked at him earnestly, and put his hand on the old man’s shoulder. Alcester sighed heavily. ‘Map is true, Captain,’ he said at last.
            ‘What seal?’ Rianya suddenly asked.
Roscoe and Alcester both whipped around at the sound of her voice, apparently having forgotten she was sat so close.
            ‘Er..seal…of approval!’ Roscoe stammered.
            ‘Yes, authentic, yes!’ Alcester chimed in, trying his hardest to sound genuine. ‘Very complicated to decipher. You would not see. Too…small.’
            ‘Don’t you think it’s hot in here? Why don’t you and Suraya step outside? She looks impatient,’ Roscoe suggested buoyantly. Rianya looked uncertain, but Suraya was already making her way out.
            ‘Go, go,’ encouraged Alcester. ‘We only talk of old times. Very boring.’
As soon as she had left, Roscoe breathed a sigh of relief.
            ‘Thank you, Alcester. I am most obliged. And I’ve also brought you a bag of your favourite biscuits.’
            ‘Biscuits, I like. Yes, glad to help! I have plate somewhere. Just let me find it. Under many books…’

A Beautiful Corpse - short story extract




I make a beautiful corpse. I watch from above as the walker’s dog finds me. And then the police, discovering my body amongst the tall grass on the golden hillside. It takes them two days. I lie as if posed, a picture from another time. Pale as snow, my dark hair flowing around my shoulders. I wear a black velvet cloak, white silken dress. Clothes I never wore in life.
In my hand is the empty packet of pills that I took. I thought about opening an artery in my wrist, but the pain of doing it with a badge pin put me off. This is so much neater. Quieter. No fuss.
The police officers take my photo. From where they stand, they can see what I saw. The big hill with the sheep farm on the top, the ruined boiler house at the bottom of the valley, the little red brick village.
The sun is setting. No one but me sees the way the tall grass is set on fire by the dying sun. No one but me sees those vibrant purple flowers that light up the field where I died. No one but me remembers the tears that soaked the ground.

S J Menary 13/03/2013
Image from wikipedia.org.uk (orginal paining Ophelia by J. Millias held at Tate Britain, London)